I feel like it was just yesterday that I wrote this post reflecting back on 2013. This year has flown by so quickly I can hardly believe it. 2014 definitely didn’t go as I expected it to go. It was a year full of many ups, many downs and a lot of confusion on top of all that. And although at times it was difficult, I wouldn’t wish it any differently because, in my attempt to see a silver lining, difficult times serve as an opportunity to learn and grow.
When looking back on your year, I think it is equally as important to acknowledge both the positive events, and the negative events that helped shape who you are and where you are right now. Some of the more positive moments of 2014 include: getting my drivers license (finally), getting my own puppy and being able to handle it, changing my major to something I am passionate about, turning 21 at last, and earning my highest GPA yet. And some of the more negative moments of 2014 include: experiencing a painful loss that I will never forget, feeling helpless to someone I care about’s pain, moments of uncertainty about the future and struggling to budget my money. However, like I said, if it wasn’t for all these moments I wouldn’t be who I am right now.
Too often, people make these same resolutions: go to the gym more, lose weight, eat better. I am 100% guilty of making these resolutions in the past and let me tell you – they have never lasted. What is different from making those same basic resolutions at the beginning of a new year than the beginning of a new month? Nothing. Honestly, I simply don’t like the definition of resolution – a firm decision to do or not to do something. It just seem too permenant and constricted. If you don’t end up following through with them, you will most likely end up feeling guilty and to me – that isn’t healthy. I can tell you right now that if I made a resolution to go to the gym everyday, I wouldn’t do it. Why? Because life and priorities. I think it makes a lot more sense to set intentions in the New Year, rather than resolutions.
1. a thing intended; an aim or plan.
The definition of intention isn’t so rigid. Intention is an aim that guides action. To me, that sounds more purposeful and self-directed. An intention is something I want to do, not something I feel obliged to do or should do. So, I have decided to come up with the following intentions for 2015.
1. I intend to stop beating myself up for having self-doubt, a bad day or feeling uncertain about what I want in life. No one has it together all the time. No one completely understands themselves and no one, including yourself, should expect you to.
2. I intend to blog more. Spend less time polishing my posts to my standard of ‘perfection’ and instead let raw and real thoughts just flow out of me. This blog is my space on the internet to publish and share select parts of my life, thoughts and feelings.
3. I intend to reevaluate my relationships. I want deeper, more meaningful relationships with people. I also want to continue to avoid any toxic relationships, which I think I did a much better job of doing this year – not a perfect job – but a better job.
4. I intend to wear more of my clothes. I’m going to be honest here – I am a bit of a hoarder. Once I buy something, I don’t like to let go of it, even if I have never worn or used it once. This year I want to try and wear everything in my closet, and throw out or donate the things I will truly never wear. And I’m not allowed to make excuses for when I may wear it, because I won’t.
5. I intend to keep reminding myself that I can’t mind read and realistically don’t actually know what other people truly think of me and never will. I shouldn’t spend time wondering or fretting about it, because “those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind”.
6. I intend to never settle. If something isn’t making me happy anymore, than I should respect myself enough to walk away from whatever it is. This includes relationships, friendships and general life events.
7. I intend to to try and figure out what really matters to me in life and make it matter even more. Live my life by what I want to value, not what I am expected to value.