These past two months I have been severely suffering from writers block. And let me tell you something about writers block, for those who don’t know – it is incredibly frustrating. I keep starting and then deleting half-written posts; overwhelmed with the feeling of being unable to put my jumbled thoughts into concrete sentences. Within the past hour, I have struggled to complete posts about an array of different topics, including my current generation’s dating funk, how we need to flaunt our flaws and I even considered writing a subtle vent ‘letter’ to some silly guy that is now very much in the past (thankfully). But guess what! This is the furthest I have gotten in a draft, so I’m just gonna keep rolling with it..
Life lately has been somewhat chaotic. Although I am not physically around the chaos, I am still very much emotionally around it. One thing that has been helping me balance out the chaos is my current internship at a mental health non-profit. After seriously disliking a lot of my previous internships, I was worried that I would never find a career I was passionate about, which made me anxious for the future. I couldn’t imagine waking up everyday wishing that I didn’t have to go to work. It would feel like waking up to go to high school all over again; I just couldn’t live like that. However, this internship opportunity has really opened my eyes and given me a new found hope for the future and my career. As corny as it sounds, I wake up excited to go to work and to be surrounded by people who share the same passions as I do. It really makes such a difference when your work is also your passion. It is also really reinforcing that a decision I made last year to change my major and follow my heart turned out to be so right. So I want to give a quick shout out to the National Alliance of Mental Illness for being awesome and saving lives.
Life lately has been an adjustment. I blogged a couple months ago about the end of an on again/off again rocky relationship. Whenever you break up with someone, being alone takes a while to get used to. Especially after you’ve been with that person for so long. It can be sad, lonely and confusing – but what break-up isn’t? I’ve realized the best thing I can do for myself right now is focus on myself, instead of worrying about another guy. Last month I started making little things such as going to the gym after work and eating healthier a priority, and I instantly noticed a change in my mental state. I felt a lot more independent and self-reliant, which felt really, really good.
Life lately has reminded me of a lesson I learnt last year. We have the power to choose who are friends are, and those select friends that you choose should be one’s that help lift you up when you are down. They should rejoice in the times you rise up. They should look for the good in you instead of dwell in the negative. They should accept your imperfections just as they are and still love you all the same, and vice versa. Life is way too short to be surrounded by those who are not serving you well – and we have the power to change that.
That’s all for now!