To start 2015 off right, I need to admit to something.
I started off this blog as an outlet; my own, personal space on the web that I could express myself on. And through this, I became more and more content with my own voice. I felt as if it was being heard loud and clear, and was resonating with others – which is a great feeling that kept me motivated to write. However sometime last month, I realized two things. One, I had writers block and two, blogging felt more like a chore than a hobby. I figured I had writers block because I was restricting myself from writing about things that were currently going on in my life. I deemed it not inspiring enough to write about, too vulnerable or too negative. I was holding back. And let me be honest here – after I reread my last post, it literally screamed out forced and inauthentic in my head. Looking back on it now, I realized that I wrote it for the wrong reasons. I wrote it because everyone else was writing about resolutions AND I was long overdue a blog post.
And somewhere along the way, I feel like my blog has lost some of the authenticity it once had. I was spending too much time editing and perfecting posts in hopes that I will gain more loyal readers and higher stats, rather than writing for myself. Of course I want my readers to enjoy reading my posts and continue to connect with me, but I can’t force it. I need to trust that as long as I write transparently, those who connect with and enjoy my posts will keep coming back for more.
I have to admit, it definitely is not easy to think about everybody you know and don’t know reading the ins and outs of your life. In this day and age, with all the social media platforms floating around the web, it is so easy to compare and contrast each others lives with our own. It’s just as easy to assume everyone else’s life is perfect based on what they selectively choose to share over facebook and instagram. You could be the loneliest, most unhappy girl in the world yet seem like you have it all simply based on social media. It can be such an illusion. And I do not want my blog to turn into that. I need to remember that this is my blog and I can and should post whatever I want to post about, on my good and bad hours/days/months/years!
For the past month I have been working with an amazingly talented web designer, Aubrey Kinch, who has been helping me plan and design a whole new layout for Liv Light. I am not using it to rebrand the site, but instead as a fresh new space for the new year, where I can begin trying to post and live as authentically as I can. Consider it a transformation. This is no longer an attempt to be a self-help blog, but instead more of a personal lifestyle blog. Bits and pieces of my life that I am choosing to share for whatever reason. My journey through the ups and downs of this crazy, unpredictable yet beautiful thing we call life.
So this year, don’t expect perfectly-polished articles with an introduction and conclusion every single time (and when I say perfectly polished, I mean in my mind..). Instead, expect more vulnerable, authentic posts about different aspects of my life that I choose to share – including the good, the bad and the ugly. Expect some more personal photos, and daily musings. Whenever I am in the mood to blog, or need an outlet to express myself, I am just going to sit down, write, reflect and publish.
I am so excited to share my blog’s new look over the next couple of days. Stay tuned and thanks for reading, as always.