Right now I am 20 years old, in my third year at college and still am not sure what career path I want to follow. I always used to hope that one morning, I would wake up and just know exactly what I was supposed to do with my life. But now, I have realized that it’s okay to not know yet and I shouldn’t freak myself out about it because not knowing exactly what I want to do will lead me down new and different paths, which will let me really explore what it is that I am good at and enjoy. When I was 14 years old, my dream job was to be a vet.. but that dream quickly vanished as soon as I did an internship at the vet and nearly threw up watching a dog being neutered (I thought I wasn’t “squeamish”.. well I very very wrong). Then I’m pretty sure my dream job after that was to be famous, but then I realized I hated the spotlight.. so I gave up on that one. Then I decided I would do business in college because it seemed to be what everyone else was doing and I thought I could easily make money with it. So I took a microeconomics class and decided that was the most unbelievably boring class ever and no matter what I did, I just couldn’t become interested in it. So I declared communications, because I knew I liked to write and communicate, I liked to be creative and I thought a communications degree would open all sorts of doors for me.
I have now done two different awesome internships that really let me get a feel for communications, and I do think I am good at it. But I wouldn’t say I am necessarily passionate about it. But maybe then, I just need to find the right company that I would be passionate about?!
Psychology is a subject that has always interested me, just because I think it’s really cool to see how the mind works and why people feel and behave the way that they do. I’ve also always loved reading self help websites and books..because, I mean, who doesn’t want to become their best self?! And my favorite type of movies are psychological thrillers. But something has always stopped me from studying it even though it’s always been in the back of my head. And I am honestly not sure what that something is.. but I am meeting with the head of the psychology department in a couple of weeks to learn more about the major/minor so I can make sure it’s something I could see myself pursuing.
It’s so easy to get stressed out or anxious about the uncertainty of the future, such as what career your supposed to be in.. but we have to remember that life is a direction, not a destination.. and making mistakes, changing your mind and going down new and different paths are the things you are supposed to find out your purpose and passion. People that feel stuck doing what they aren’t passionate about are usually those who were too afraid to take the risk of changing direction and trying something new. We shouldn’t just stick with something just because it’s familiar and comfortable to us.
So my plan is to just go with the flow, keep pushing myself out of my comfort zone and hopefully then I will find my true passion.